Why

Why is it that we feel the way we feel at times
in line with rhymes that feel like pelted dimes
Often wonder, the depth of blunders
shake and quake like the Earth inner layers down under
Something inside me growing, not knowing it's intent
unknown to be known, yet known that it's present in a sense
Welling up, I meditate on what it may be
praying that it's the opposite of latent negativity
Over come what has been, try to produce the not
begin with new beginnings, take a fated shot
So many emotions going on inside, after the border ride
skip jumped ship now just trying to quell the uneasiness inside
Huge move not seen by all
that transcends another state, and transfixes on the fall
Niagra, no longer simply up above
but now resides below, and it's something I must come to love
Can't and won't deny, that I'm missing my true home
the place where I was born and raised, the place I knew as my own
Sitting around, lazily all day, with nothing else to do
So I sit and I contemplate .. what if I had never left you
I do ..
I do.

quick

Internal decisions
without the minds permission
set back in remission
that the independence is in omission
..my mission
is to clearly expose the plot
the subdued thoughts once thought
channeled to be fully presented in the slot
the path to the present
the passage way to the world
outspoken through the mouth
and poured with humbleness unfurled
Pacing back and forth
inside my mind thoughts race
step back take a breath, relax
and let yourself be known in Gods grace
sometimes lose face
and in your lowest hit your high
in the acceptance that He loves you
even if you can't fully grasp why