New Year

It's about to be a new year, a new time, a new mind
mentality elevated and forgetting the pains in due time
so while we shine, we step out of our older shells
we multiply our faith and we accentuate ourselves
Step out of your shell that you kept yourself in past
and turn into a new being that can transcend and make it last
Let go of the things weighing you down in 09
and in 010 start fresh and then you'll find
Happiness renewed, and the pains can melt away
so long as you seek forgiveness, he loves you every day.

Society

Sometimes I sit back and look at society as a whole ..
how it is spiraling down and how people have turned so cold
desensitized .. to the truth in their own religion
they've lost faith in the Word, and bring apart our division
Now I speak this true, my depth of faith isn't as deep as should be
but when you look around nowadays, it's non-existent in some I see
All the wars and terror, the pain and dismay
the hatred and venom, that people keep putting on display
Afraid to have our children play outside during the day ..
for fear of the "gang bangers" on the street
We keep our kids nestled close inside
and then wonder why they are engrossed with the t.v.
WE need to make the environment a safe place for them to play
so that they can spend their fun times, outside every day
It's getting to a point though, where we fear looking at someone wrong
for fear or retaliation, just for looking at someone too long
Looking over our shoulders, as we are walking down the street
in unknowing angst, for something that we can't see
See a bunch of kids, hanging on the corner in front a store
cross the street without realizing, and feel their motives are impure
It's something that we are building, and tearing down at the same time
it's a sad future without our help, this is when we all must shine
So put our heads together, and let's stand up for the future leisure
let's work hard for our children, so they have a place to play pleasure

Love

This love is deep.
It ..
feels ..
ohhh .. soooo ..
great.
The feeling of feelings that is something I must elate
Can you relate?
It's something nestled so deep down to my core
I implore .. nayy
I adore!
The very way she guides my feet
It's something so beautiful that it could never turn me sore
She is that ..
thing that when you wake up in the morning wants to keep you in bed
The reason you smile when you see a child healthily being fed
And now we're wed?
Man, life just couldn't be greater
At this point in my life, only thing greater is the creator
I'm happy ..
Though at times I know I'm sad
but the sadness can't outweigh the good
so I smile because times are not so bad
Dude I'm glad ..
This woman makes me feel complete
just .. so .. happy man
I love her from my very core
and it's that genuine love
You know, that stuff that's uber pure
for sure
I'm looking forward to the things to come
With the smiles that cross my face
She has such grace
In this place
without haste
she quickly lays waste
to things out of pace
that can't fill up the space
and close the distance ..
without resistance she has impacted my life in so many ways
I love this woman, Thank You God, for all of my days
I can ramble on and on, and just keep going on with blurbs
She's my wife and my partner, of who there are no words
She smiles at me in the morning
Holds me tight during the night
Rushes me when we're late (because of her of course)
and is to me, always the hottest date
The only one who can turn my mood around when I don't want it to
when I am .. you know .. trying to stay in my grumpy mood
When she's near she drags me out of it, and I love her for it
Just one quick glance at her face, with the smile drawn wide
is enough to vanquish any darkness that may have been lingering inside
I've cried countless nights, just in thanking the good Lord
for bringing someone in my life to bring calm to my discord
I LOVE YOU .. I'll say it time and time again
you're my lover and my wife, but most importantly you're my friend.
I love you .. I love to love to love to love you
I love you .. I love you .. I truly sincerely do.

Tight

I just can't wait for the days to hold you ever so tight
when I can lay in bed and you'll always be in my sight
Our deep connection and bond, way beyond physical sense
I love you, yes I love you .. and there is no other pretense
You are the happiness in my day, the light when times are void
The air that helps me breathe when I feel alone and destroyed
Your embrace is so warm, inviting and ever so tender
A fact that is accentuated by the fact that you're so slender
I feel comfort in your arms, and rejuvenated by your touch
I feel anew with your gaze, and feel alive with your love
So I am just longing for the days, when I know I will feel right
the time when it's every day, that I can finally hold you tight

inVested

While time may be short .. it's really been quite long
this inVestment we have Vested in this vessel all along
Deeply connected, body and minds reach their peak
of understanding for one another that transcends what words can speak
Sometimes we seek .. something further than our grasp
but with return of initial inVestment, it's no longer a painful task
Giving what you are getting, but then still giving so much more
not seeking anything in return, but doing it for love in pure

Lifetime

Living my life, in time I guess we can finally see
the decisions that we make and how they impact us negatively
All that we can, is move on towards the still coming
and glance back over our shoulders to make sure we are still running
As certain times get nearer, I guess these tensions rise
though I see the sadness, that still lingers in your eyes
I'm putting my want on hold, putting the future in high regard
but that same thought of logic is what's making this so hard
To not be near is cruel, to be far from coming much worse
and even though it's coming, this time lost still really hurts
I go through days without you, my beautiful Queen in life
and I miss you so much every day, not just because you are my wife
But because you are my heart, you give me strength when I am down
and no matter what hard days lie ahead, it's always simple with you around
Time is moving slowly, it's like everything is a blur
if only we could change the flow with ease in simple words
So I sit here with my heart wandering, my mind is in the clouds
bursting at the seams with how much I want to scream out loud
I MISS HER, I LOVE HER, I WANT TO BE BY HER SIDE!
WHY IS THIS TAKING SO LONG, MY FEELINGS I CAN NEVER HIDE
SHE MAKES THE TIME SEEM SPECIAL, SHE WARMS MY HEART WHEN COLD
SHE IS THE LIGHT WHEN THERE IS DARKNESS, SHE IS THE SOIL THAT HELPS ME GROW
To finally be together, and enjoy each joy right beside
one another is something, that finally we won't be deprived
So as we count down these days slowly, and make headway to the day
we just turn to God and his greatness, and for this each night we Pray.

Out

I think I'm going to go for a drive. I'm off to brooklyn.

Tears

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Painful thoughts, injected into the very core of being
interpolated objects seemingly subjugated into the weaving
Eyes bloated and blotted, allotted certain time for depression
within their own regression they find the purpose of their suppression
Teetering on the edge of sanity through moral oppression
only to find that faith really is the most supreme weapon
Finding it hard at times, when the times are hard
as though you're grasping at straws and trapped while off guard
Affecting my very being, time given no longer allowed
distance makes for distance and again lost within the crowd
Back-burnered, put aside and presently forgotten
so misery allowed to amass, and turn sour .. rotten
Degraded, regarded as another in yet a chain of remorse
painful thoughts drudged up and set themselves a course ..
to the epicenter, the omphalos of the struggled
a bundle of negativity that needs to be cast aside, not juggled
So there go the tears, at the despondency of being unable to speak
withering away inside, as the inability to reconcile peaks
At the spire, I aspire to do so many voluminous things
but I feel limited, like I'm stuck inside this ring
This thing, is a self-imposed barrier I'm sure
yet even though I know it, outside of it I can't explore
I'm watching as the waves break, crashing against the bow of my boat
just waiting for the big one to make me subside, knowing I won't float
I feel like I'm being cheated on, that life is favoring another
like the cold feel when you realize that they are no longer your lover
Again it's in my mind, and I know I need to turn to the Lord
but at times I get lost, and fall hopelessly in my own discord
Eyes bulging with the want, heart burning with the desire
inflamed with the love that he deserves, so I aspire ..
To be greater, my life is more than just for me
but sometimes I forget that and lose sight of the we
I know I'm destined for greatness, and this isn't me being cocky
it's more like I feel a calling, and I'm listening for the spot to see
Is it coming from here, or that door over there
at the present moment, all can I do is sit and stare
I wish for this, and then I'll wish for that
I wish for things when I shouldn't, and put faith in his fact
No words can explain this chill I feel at times, or why it exists
it makes me feel dead to the world, and it really persists
When I was younger I believed that I would do so many deeds
those of whose greatness not many could supersede
So now I plead, and I ask you for your joys
this is filled with so many I's, like the prayers of a little boy
But I can't help but feel alone at times, like I'm trapped in my room
like I mentioned in a previous poem, and I'm surrounded by gloom
Many others have done the things that I am about to do
until experienced for one-self though, it's always going to be new
I need to let go, and not stress so much in life
a lesson I guess I should learn from the teachings of my wife
Just coming from my past, to fully let go is just so hard
it's like expecting an ant to pull an airliner for yards
I'm trying my best, but it's just taking so much time
that it puts others down around me, and makes me seem out of line
I'm just asking for understanding, to walk by my side no matter what
because of incidents in past I have the tendency to be considerably shut
Now, within relation .. to my present status quo
the balance of faith needs to categorically exponentially grow
I know, I know .. please believe me .. I know
I'm growing, believe me, it's just going type slow
So with tears in my eyes, I type these idioms in disdain
pleading for forgiveness .. I need an umbrella for this rain

At Work

While I sit here at work, pondering the steps to take
I realize just how little of my brain I use, and it sort of makes me shake
In debate, with other portions of being
Stepping back from faux reality to see the truth I'm seeing
I have so many things ahead .. boggling to the mind
I get stressed on a daily basis, though it's something I hide in kind
Nights going to bed teary, when I know I should put in my faith
I'm getting so much better .. it's only a little more it'll take
Yet I sit here and feel dismal, knowing I'm capable of so much more
Wondering when things will break, and I can see what's finally in store
I implore, and wish to know it at present
yet that is something I understand won't happen when I maintain the mind frame of a peasant
Unpleasant, as the story may unfold
I have to interject the neg, and inject it with my soul

So, with all the things I have to get ready for, I'm also planning on business ventures.
My boys and I have a couple schemes that we have to cure, involving no more debentures.
We sat back one day, and reflected on just about all the people we knew.
Gasped all of a sudden, due to the fact that we had so many avenues we could accrue
Fielding in business, finance, and health
Science, English, Math, even more books off the shelf
Gaming and sports, Graphics and design
Public relations to Sanitation, it's amazing at all of the things we could find
So we slowly stockpile our knowledge, because we know we are going to make it happen
This business model we're building is something in the past I couldn't imagine
or fathom.

it'z zee aud-e-oh

To Save

*** BELOW IS THE IMPROVED METHOD A LA KIZZY EL!! FOLLOW HER!! ***
**temporarily taken down .. I dislike the auto-play, lol**

This is just a little spoken that I do from time to time ..
a simple way of venting, an expressing issues on my mind
don't wallow in the past, just let your sins be dead
and don't let the continuance of your hatred still be fed
but be forever shed
Step out ya box man an listen
his word is always around, so don't lock yaself in faux prisons
now given .. situations may arise
but if theres one thing I've learned, it's that he's always known to surprise
people came into your life, now .. think of the reason
maybe he's just telling you that it's finally ya season
you're ready to bloom .. not swept up by the broom
now YOU'RE the handle, and you're sweeping up the gloom
Envision the room, you'd been trapped in in past
it's withering away as you put ya praise on blast
The devil can't win, so long as you trust
so put ya faith in God and you'll be blown by his gust
Heavenly flow .. the air around you is aglow
by shining with Gods words, you can't lose, ya kno

Audio

Yeah so .. I totally did an audio compile .. and now have no idea where it saved to, lol. I wasn't fully excited about how it sounded either, but meh. Kizz, I know I'm a couple days late on the postings .. lol, sorry.

JAD

Just Another Day

Even thought today was dreary, dark and kind of sad
I need to rethink the possibilities of the possible, which make me glad
With guidance from up above, we create our game strategy still
Cleverly craft our skills, and make use of them at will
When we really sit back and think of it, we have so many connections
Back and forth, up and down, at times .. different directions
But we finally can come to one, and make this venture come to fruition
Call it luck or a guess, but I call it simply by intuition
Given .. to me, by the man I love the most
The man who is beyond any man, the man who made me a host
A host to carry his sayings, his ideals, and his beliefs
For we are all of God, so mind what you do beneath those sheets
Hold your head high, because we are all in this together
Land bridges, and sea expanses, can't change the world forever
We can, if we just put our faith in him
The creator of all creators, the one who won't let our brilliance dim
So to all my fellow people, of this world we stand
Though the question still remains .. will you hold on to my hand?

Gloom

Lately, I really don't know what it is. Seems to be just a dreary and damp mood infiltrating my very core. Everyone around me is also in some sort of stupor. I don't know if it is the changing times, or just life getting to us, but it is clearly evident that something has happened. Now I try not to live in the negative aspects of life. In fact, I've been doing quite well in living in the positives. I haven't been dark and depressed as much, and have been looking to the future with much more hope and anticipation than I think I ever have in life. There are the times though, however, when for whatever odd reason it may be, that I just can't. When everyone around you that you know and care for are down, you can't help but be infected by it. Well, me at least. I really hope that this funk is over soon, as I miss laughing.

Hello

Hi

Audio

I wonder if I should do some audio spoken word to add here ..
keep it plugged, that's something I think you should hear.

Who needs a title?

Mind disturbed, but still steady on the path
just follow God Rich, just follow God, and acknowledge his math
It all adds up, mathematical equation in his duration
our God who has been here and instills such inspiration
Longevity, it's in his presence we find the equity
Invest in the long term, short term gain is unfounded
get a little green now but remain poor and never grounded
Think back, to the times when it was rough
who do you think helped you through? God .. that's enough
of a
reason to spark your interest, to gain your market share
without his divine assistance life would be way too much to bear
Trust in him, and believe in his word
He'll move you each day, trust me .. I'm a nerd.

;)

CWL

C hurches sometimes come across as rather all about the money
H onoring the wrong things and making religion out to be something slummy
U psetting as this may be, not all of them are bad
R especting true faith .. there are many that make me glad
C oming from all walks, and never bearing the same face
H elping others find their freedom by realizing his .. Gods grace

W hen I was younger still, I thought I'd never find the one
I figured they were all the same, and that my faith was truly done
T hen came a Church with reason, purpose, and desire
H olding on to precious values, and with such uplift .. they help inspire
O ne after another, they greet and say "What's up!"
U nprecedented love, and they don't leave you a half empty cup
T his is what I was searching for, a place to really belong

L oving God side by side with people whose love for him is STRONG
I 've made so many mistakes, and poor moves in my past
M aking the move to this church though .. it's like the perfect set has now been cast
I t's ..
T hings like this, their love, and a place to call your own
S triking the Devil down with their praise, and placing God in our hearts .. his home

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CWL .. though I may not be there in a physical sense, my spirit rides with yall
With Renee helping me find my faith, I feel ready to drop the ball
It's a movement, and I'm riding the tide
Diving in head first and letting God take me for a ride
A journey and a script that I could never have fathomed
and bringing people into my life who I would never imagine
Now take the first Caps letter, of every line written above the dotted line
And you'll have found yourself the best Church that a person could ever find.

Church Without Limits

@reneesophia
@joelwitton
@brendanwitton
@kizzyel
@cwldevo
@cwltweets
@roadimusprime
@ashlynking
@n_antoine
@the entire CWL crew!!

wake up

Even though I don't want to, and roll out of bed
I have to thank the Lord for the opportunity, because I've been blessed
Not all have the chance, so I steady my nerves
swing out my legs, and prepare for the worst
then I let my feet connect, with the ground so cold
I yawn and stretch, man, this feeling never gets old
Slowly stand on my feet, grab the wall for added measure
even if we hate getting out of bed .. having LIFE .. is a treasure.

Love

The love that she exudes oozes through my soul
wraps its hands around my mind
and tantalizes me with the stories that it's told

I love this woman, with all my heart and every breath
I breathe the breath of her essence in my chest

God I've been blessed, with someone who makes my day worthwhile
Someone who makes me feel so special
and who carries so much style

When my times were troubled, there she was to save me
and bring me to the path of God
re-establish the love of we

She .. held my hand through my many troubled times
guided me so gently, as if .. it was her OWN mind
To define a dime, in the way of the hood truth
she'd be that infinite-fold, with all the things that she could
.. do

I love her .. I trust her with all my heart
She brought me back to the path of God
now all it takes is for me to start
All the .. anguish inside, that bubbles and bursts
the scabs on my knees from the prayers I thought weren't heard
Inside her she took them, and spit them back out
I love this Queen so much, with that, there is no doubt

Renee you're my love, you've brought meaning to my life
And now with titles changed, I'm blessed that you're my wife.

I love you.

Today

Today was just another day, a day like any other day
except in the way that today happened to unfold and play
frustrations with work constantly becoming a buzz
to quit reaches my mind while it's lost in its fuzz
Static, rational thought waves subdued
in comes the calamity with more idiocy in pursuit
I reach for my hair to try and pluck it from my head
yet I have none to pull, so I start to pick at my nails instead
Frustrations released, this job makes me nuts
I know I should be grateful, but geez, this job really sucks
Only a short time longer, bear it, I must endure
because I'm reaching for a better future, with my wifes presence constantly in store
So I rant and I rave, and I fume out the top
it's one way to release, and helps the foolishness stop
I look back on the years, and time vested is true
so when finally I leave, the frustrations will have paid due
With Gods words I am calmed, and can now address my day
His arms embrace my soul, and calm it in only HIS way.

Sleep

I want to.  I shall. 

God

While I don't know you like I know I should know you
just know that I want to get to know you how I should know you
You exist, I know you do, and you know that I know you do
sometimes I just don't do what I know I should do when it comes to knowing you.
You have given me so much, and I know that you have done it
Sometimes I just find it so rough, need to find the time to really sit
Listen
this is your intermission
you've told me to believe
and you've sent me on a mission
I've struggled so much, with all my pains of the past
and you know of my struggles and why I've held on to this wrath
I've cried so many nights, and asked if you were real
because of all the lies and complex emotions that I would feel
The deception of so many churches, the guise of their agendas
all beckoning me to join and to indulge in their haciendas
With my adventures of the past, I thought you'd never forgive
that you hated me, you loathed me, that I had to live with my sins
That you'd turned your back on me, because I didn't do as I was told
that because I took my time, that my soul had really been sold
Cried so many nights, tears streaking down my face
felt like a fallen angel, living my life in such disgrace
I rejected you so much, because it just didn't make sense
I wanted your grace so bad, but felt you'd already taken offense
So I sat and I pondered, and lived my life in painful thought
but deep in my heart, I'd known I'd already been bought
Sold my soul to the worldly things, when it doesn't belong
It was yours, and yours only .. I've known it all along
And now there she sat, yes, with her own struggles too
but you brought us together .. I guess you knew we were fools
Hah, you make me laugh with your constant way of showing
but us two fools took so long to see .. without even knowing
You brought her around, and gave her your shine
and now with her so bright .. I'm slowly regaining mine

Love God .. Love life.

She is

She is
the reason that I can smile
the reason that my days are full of light and that I feel they are worthwhile
She is
the moon that helps me see my way at night
She is
the morning sun that shines it light so bright
She is
the one who brought me back, on the road to talk to God
She is
my one and only, my love, my heart .. the one who leaves me awed

Her

The way she took me from the darkness and brought me to the light
simple random blurbs that she spoke to me at night
As I .. thought that I would be alone and wander around in the dark
she came out of her slumber and in the stillness became my spark
She is love
My faith in mankind finally renewed
within her small delicate frame I found that my angers were subdued
Like the waves crashing against the shore, so did she confront my wall of fears
and just as the water erodes the land, she wore away at my pains and took away the tears
Who .. else .. can .. make me feel the way that she does
Beyond God, nobody, and that's why she is the bearer of my love.